Okay, I admit, lately I’ve been feeling like a bad mom.
I love Collin with all my heart and I do my best to provide for him and let him know he’s loved, but I’m hitting the “bad mom” mode with Number Two. During my first pregnancy I was the typical excited mommy-to-be; I got the weekly emails detailing the growth of my little one… I read my childbirth readiness book religiously so I could know everything there was to know about what was to come… I researched newborns and how to best care for them… I looked over my baby names book almost nightly trying to search out the perfect name… I went garage saleing for clothing, toys and “stuff…” And I was just plain excited.
This time, it’s different. Don’t get me wrong, I still care about the well-being of my upcoming little one but the excitement and wonder just isn’t there, and I feel terrible some days because of it. I’m sure as the time draws closer the excitement level will build and this “bad mom” feeling will pass, but in the meantime I just try to focus my time and energy on Collin rather than worrying over an issue that in all actuality doesn’t exist.
And while other worries lie ahead, mainly “How am I going to keep up with a barely-toddler and a newborn?!,” I’m focusing on the happy things. Feeling the first few kicks (you know, before they get annoying), digging out my maternity wardrobe, and loving on my little boy before momma has a lot less time to dote on him.
Any tips for a new second-time-mom, from anyone who’s been there? I’d love to hear ’em!
For now, here’s another handy link:
Once a Month Mom is a site I stumbled across from a friend’s Facebook posting… It’s a great resource for make-and-freeze meals and even includes ideas for homemade baby food, and foods for special diets!